Taking a year off has done some weird shit to my brain.
I’ve been making stupid decisions. I wake up everyday and feel like I’m still drifting in dreamland so I don’t pay attention to what I’m doing. Work is not intellectually stimulating enough. Instead, it has worsened my temper to the point where I’m crying and yelling at my boss. I would’ve never done that at school. I think it’s because I’m getting too comfortable with my coworkers, and also I just don’t care what they think about me.
I don’t like what I’ve become. I want to be able to focus again, and let go of trivial things.
In about 1.5 months, med school will begin to pound of my brain so I guess I’m getting my wish. /rambling